As a 30-something year old I find myself a million miles from the ordinary. The lucky husband of a beautiful wife, the proud father of two adoring daughters and the oft-annoyed owner of a rat-dog named “Nubbins” and a spoiled puppy named "Bernie," my life is a far cry from the depressing prognosis doctors gave me when I was diagnosed with muscular dystrophy at age seven.
This blog is all about where I am, where I’m headed and what powers me through life.
Saturday, March 26, 2016
A promise of things to come
I wrestle with Easter. Not the ham, the chocolate bunnies or
the time with friends and family. That part is easy.
The part of Easter that I struggle with has to do with the
fact that I have an unwavering, sincere testimony that Jesus Christ is my
savior, that he died for my sins and that he was resurrected three days after
being laid in a tomb.
How can a testimony of such beautiful truths be a struggle?
Good question. I'm not sure I can fully answer it, but I'll try.
Part of my struggle comes from having spent a lifetime
grappling with the realities of a debilitating neuromuscular disease. Indeed,
without feeling sorry for myself or going into too much detail, I can honestly
say that this body of mine has some serious city miles on it. And the pain that
I have, and do and will continue to feel is real.
And so, in thinking about the resurrection, this amazing
miracle of miracles, the conquering of life over death, this unfathomable
promise that one day my limbs will be fully restored - that every hair on my
head will be accounted for and perfected - that I will live in a healthy,
pain-free body that does not tire or falter is a dream so rich in its fullness
of God's love and mercy, so abundantly filled with compassion and tenderness
that the mere thought of it evokes an immensely deep and meaningful
celebration, wonderment and reverence within me that I almost don't even dare
allow myself the joy of contemplating it for more than a brief moment at a time
for fear that I'll lose myself in its promise.
Put simpler, I look forward to the day when, in my
resurrected body, I raise my wheelchair over my head and toss it off the edge
of the earth. But, because it would be very easy for me to get lost in that
daydream, I try not to spend too much time thinking about it.
Instead, I try to focus on what I consider to be the even
greater miracle associated with Easter; the atonement.
I say greater because while the resurrection means I'll live
again, which is pretty fantastic, it is through the atonement that I can live
again with God. To me, that is what brings true value to the promise of a
resurrected frame; the opportunity to use it to dwell with my Heavenly
There are no words to adequately describe the abundance of
Unlike the promise of the resurrection, I find no danger in
thinking on the atonement. In fact, I find that the more I think on it, the
more it does for me.
Pondering the atonement makes me more cognizant of my
Savior's love for me, of my divine potential, of the gift of forgiveness, the
importance of humility and the promise of eternal progression. Put simpler,
thinking about the atonement makes me want to be a better man, which, in turn,
makes me an improved man.
And therein lies the blessing.
Mine is an incredibly blessed life, far from perfect, but
wonderful by nearly every measure. And yet, it pales into nothingness when
compared to the prospect of eternal life; dwelling with God in a resurrected
Thankfully, we don't have to choose between the two. The
promise of eternal life is available to us all. That's what we celebrate and
that's where we find our joy - in He who gave up all that we might each posses
And so it is that, with a smile on my face and hope in my heart, I wish you and yours the happiest of Easters.